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Today’s post is a collection of thoughts I had for the two days leading up to my exam. Put on yo seatbelts kids, we’re going on a bumpy ride…
Thursday, November 30
LOUD SIGH. Silent cry. I’m stressed out and at the verge of giving up. The first assessment for block 3 is tomorrow and I feel so unprepared. There is so much information to know that I don’t even know what I actually know anymore. It’s so overwhelming… Yesterday the professors had a review webinar but I had low hopes for that. It was so useless tbh …like why give me life stories when we can be reviewing material for the exam? Everything the professors said contradicted each other. They’ll say “focus on the normals” but module 4 (fluid/electrolyte imbalances) was mainly abnormals. There is nothing normal about electrolyte imbalances.
For this first half of the block, the professor gave us outlines and summaries for each module. They also gave us a “study guide” but none of the information added up. Like one of the outlines says something but the summary says something else. And the study guide? Oh don’t even get me started on the study guide.. It is horrifying. It is 19 pages of information that is supposed to stick to my brain by tomorrow. Suddenly, I’m at a Starbucks flipping through three sets of notes because none of it adds up. Like why? I’ve been going through the outlines and I’m thinking, ok, I did my best and did what I could..but what if my best wasn’t good enough? Is that sad? Probably. But I’m going to bed and hoping for the best tomorrow. Fingers crossed.
Friday, December 1
Today was dooms day part 1 and damn, I don’t even know how I felt. I guess I was nervous/scared/i don’t care anymore/whateverhappenshappens/see you at remediation.. But I walked in there this morning and I just sat there joking around with my friends trying to not think about the exam I was about to fail. So the exam begins and I look at the first question. From there, I knew it wasn’t gonna be a good one. As I was going through the 60 questions, I felt like I could have tried harder these past few weeks. It came to the point where maybe if I reread a little more, I would know the definite answer rather than guessing. I literally almost broke down during the exam. It’s funny because yesterday, I was surprised I haven’t broken down yet… WELP, there it is. I almost started crying because I was so overwhelmed by the things I didn’t know and the things I could have known if I read the textbook more efficiently. For some reason, my mind always holds on to the “shoulda couldas.” Towards the end of the exam, I just sat there clicking through the questions and well, it was time to let go. So, I submitted and I did what I could.
When it came to the team assessment, we got a 90% or higher as a team so that meant that we got 3 points added to our individual exam score. But while we were going through the exam, I lost count of how many questions I thought I got wrong. At that point, I kept saying “welp, I’ll see you at remediation”. *nervous laugh*
During the evidence based review, we were able to argue the questions and try to either get points or nullify it. I think I got about 2 points back which was relieving! Still, I wasn’t sure if I passed or not. That anxiety killed me but I tried to stay as positive as possible (aka not think about it). Again, whatever happens happens..
And drumroll pls…EVERYBODY PASSED!! WHOOOO! WHICH MEANS I PASSED!!! All the weight on my shoulders fell to the ground as we let out all the anxiety we’ve been holding in for the past 6 hours. And as I’m writing this, I checked my score and I got a 98%! Like WHAT?! ME? 98%? If you told me a few years ago that I would be getting 90% or higher on exams, I wouldn’t believe you. Before I started this program, I started to doubt myself because I wasn’t sure if I could get a 90% or higher on exams. I mean looking at my history…there weren’t many 90s or higher.
And I know that this is only block 3 and it’s going to get harder but it feels so relieving to know that this is possible. Even though nursing school is so stressful and tiring, I realized that I found my purpose and I’m passionate about it. Who knew?
And that wraps up part 1 of block 3. This was only the first exam and we have another one in about two weeks. I hope I can use my regrets from this half to improve my study habits for the next half. I also hope that the professor is consistent with how they test us but..let’s be real here. Are they ever consistent? Send help and more oreos. Thanks!
As always, thank you for stopping by and possibly sighing with me! Do you have any questions? Let me know! I hope you have a beautiful day. and don’t forget the shine bright, you’re beautiful ❤
❤ , TIFF
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