Welcome back to my blog!
Long time no blog post! I sincerely apologize for that. After Clinicals ended, pharmacology began and it’s been kicking my butt. No joke. All the meds sound the same and I can’t pronounce half of them. Oh boy… Anyways, today I thought I’d write about my first clinical experience. I vlogged it but I wanted to write about some things I didn’t talk about in the vlog!
Clinical rotations are like reality checks. You’ve learned everything there is to know about fundamentals but once you step onto that hospital floor, it’s something else. That is exactly what it was like for me.
This past week, I completed my first round of clinical rotations! This rotation focused on the things we learned in Block 3: Fundamentals of Nursing. My rotation was two weeks long with 3 consecutive 12-hour shifts in each week. So my group’s shifts were Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. I’ve never had to work the weekend before so it was a different experience. My Thursday–Saturday turned into my usual Tuesday–Thursday where my Friday was the dreadful day. Weird right? It really messed up my days. But after getting used to it, I stopped noticing.
12 hours…720 minutes..43200 seconds… 12 hours doesn’t sound so bad until you’re working it. The first day of clinicals went by really slow. Every time I looked up at the clock, only a few minutes passed by. It was such a drag. But then the next day, time went by a little faster. And by the final third day, time went by fast BUT all the exhaustion from the past few days accumulated and hit me in one day. Saturdays were my most tiring day.
Overall, I had fun and I loved it. It got me excited to go back to learning and graduate so i can be a Real Nurse. Anyways, I’m going to let my vlogs do the rest of the talking! I hope you enjoy!
OH but one thing I didn’t talk about was what happened during my evaluation. During evaluation, we sat down individually with our clinical instructor and she went over our performance with us. At one point, my clinical instructor asked me, “is this still something you want to do?” and that put me in a really weird place. As you can tell, I wasn’t doing so well. But it made me ask myself, “is this what I want to do?” In my professor’s opinion, I am a shy person who needs to spread her wings. TRUE. But when she asked me that, I felt lost again. Remember a few posts back, I talked about how I got to nursing?
Let’s review, TLDR; I didn’t know what to do with my life until I fell in love with nursing.
Well basically, I was back in that place. I love studying about nursing. I got through these past three blocks because I had a passion for nursing. But when I got onto the hospital floor, it was like another world to me. Suddenly everything I learned turned into black and white and there I was on the first day of clinicals, standing in a patient’s room not knowing what to say or what to do. I froze. When I was shadowing a nurse, I froze. I didn’t know what to ask, I didn’t know what to say, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? But as time went on, I got comfortable in the hospital where I was able to talk to patients and help them with whatever they needed. But when she asked me that, there was the only thing rushing through my head.
Is this still something I want to do?
Damn, who knew eight words could mess me up. Not gonna lie, I went to the bathroom afterwards and cried it out and then went back to work. I hope it wasn’t obvious. Then after my shift, I went home and I cried some more. I don’t know if I ever mentioned this but one of my biggest fears is losing interest in my career/wasting time. I felt very meh about the whole situation. But my friends pep talked me back into my senses and the next day, I walked back into that hospital one last time. Still with some self-doubt, I tried my best to give it my all on my last day of clinicals. I think it was one of the best clinical days yet! I had a great nurse who taught me so much and I feel like I opened up a bit.
I have to accept the fact that I will never be as outgoing as some people BUT it does not define what kind of nurse I will be. And it takes practice. I hope by the next clinicals, I’ll be able to “spread my wings” a bit but for now, signing off from this blog post… I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful✨
Oh by the way, the answer to that question: yes, this is still something I want to do. Honestly, my clinical instructor wasn’t always watching me because there’s 8 of us and one of her. Therefore, she wasn’t always around when I was doing stuff. So she missed many opportunities where I interacted with patients and helped them with what they needed. I really enjoyed being around the patients and being able to be there for them. Patient care requires a lot of patience, time, and responsibility. I may not be perfect but who was ever perfect on their first try? Anyways, nowww I’m signing off. Thanks for reading! Ok bye! ❤
❤ , TIFF
Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.
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