Welcome back to my blog!
I apologize for the lack of vlogs and blog posts. This has been the most rewarding but also the most emotionally draining rotation I’ve had so far in nursing school.
Today, I wanted to talk about my ED experience. It’s been about three weeks since I’ve experienced this but I wanted to make sure I had all the details written in this post. I went to the ED and it was great. I got to do compressions but I also faced my first death. Welcome to one of the hardest blog posts I’ve written so far.
Like the ICU, I was afraid of going to the ED. Something about the department just made me feel uneasy. But like the ICU, I decided to take the opportunity because when will I ever get to go to the ED as a nursing student ever again? (probably never)
My biggest fear going into the hospital is Code Blue and CPR because the patient’s life is LITERALLY in your hands and I knew that if one were to happen, they would put the student (me) to work! So after lunch, I was standing around and suddenly the overhead goes ATTENTION PLEASE ATTENTION PLEASE CODE BLUE RM 12 ETA 5 MINS and my dumb tired butt was like, “how do they time code blue?” -.- silly me. but I sped walk (because you never run) to room 12 and tried to dodge everyone that was coming in and out of that room to gather supplies for the code.
As we were standing in the room waiting, my heart was beating out of my chest. I was so nervous for what was about to happen.
What’s going to happen? What does he look like? What was this person like? How do I do compressions again?
All of these thoughts danced in my mind until EMS showed up with the patient and everything just happened so fast. The moment the patient arrived, everyone got to work and I honestly don’t remember much about it. I just remember hiding behind a tall doctor next to the sharps container, trying to be as invisible as possible. I was just taking in everything.
They quickly switched off people during compressions if they were tired and I was next in line. There was no time to panic and as I was stepping up to the plate, one of the nurses was like “just sing the song” and I’m thinking, “what song?!” then she started to sing it and it was Stayin alive by Bee Gees, which sounded like the rhythm you had to go when you did compressions. …that song is still stuck in my head..
If there was one major thing I learned that day, it was that I have to work harder at the gym aha
But jokes aside, I was literally putting my entire weight on this patient but it was SO ineffective that the defibrillator was like, “press harder” oh boy… After a minute which felt like an hour, someone switched with me so I could rest and after a couple rounds later, I jumped back in. I know, I was surprised that I decided to jump in again too. But the ER staff was so supportive that I felt like I was capable of doing compressions so I decided to get back in!
The patient ended up not making it and it took a while for me to process. The whole time I was in there, I tried to stay away from my emotions and focus on what was happening in front of me. I kept it together for as long as I could but after the doctor called the time of death, a nurse pulled me into the storage room and asked me if it was my first time seeing that. I said yes. She reassured me that we did everything we could and there wasn’t much left that we could have done. She also told me it was okay to cry and let me cry. I let it all out, wiped my tears, and went back to work. I wish I could thank her for that because it was really thoughtful and it helped me mentally handle the situation.
Although it took me a while to process what happened, it kept me thinking. Just seeing the family members and the thought of a lifeless person laying there, it was a lot to take in. But I’m thankful that I got to experience this during my clinical rotation and I’m not afraid of CPR anymore! whooooooooo but I really do have go back to the gym. Damn it muscle strength of -1.
But that was my experience of doing compressions for the first time. Some notable things I noticed during the code was that the doctor was super calm and collected. While everyone was trying to save the patient’s life, he took the time to talk to the family and update them on what was happening. Towards the end of the code, he also reviewed everything they’ve done so far and asked if anyone had any other ideas. I thought that was great because someone could have thought of something that no one else had thought of. Inclusion was a theme in this code.
This is something I will never forget and I’m thankful I got to experience it during my clinical rotation.
Thank you so much for stopping by and reading this blog post! I hope this all made sense and wasn’t difficult to read. I’m not sure why I had such a hard time writing this one but it was an experience I really wanted to share with you all. If you liked this post, please like and follow my blog!
Signing off from this blog post… I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful. Thanks for reading!✨
❤ , TIFF
Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.
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psst… I’m need a nap.