TRAUMATIZED BY SIM LAB (lol) // LETIFFANYSHOW

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SIM lab is a place where all dreams go to die. Kidding. But I may or may not be traumatized by my SIM lab experience.

Welcome back to my blog! I participated in a SIM lab and I thought I’d write about my experiences and reflect on what I would have done different. Grab a snack because this is going to be a long one…

Background

Simulation lab (SIM lab for short) is an activity we have in nursing school where we’re put in a room that mimics a hospital room with a SIM mannequin that mimics a human. It’s pretty cool cause the mannequin has respirations, has a pulse, and it talks! Well, the professor and the IT master control the mannequin in the control room but it’s amazing how much technology we have these days. So basically, the professor gives us a scenario, picks 2 student nurses to go in the room to do the simulation while the rest of the group sits in a different room and watch them do their thang on a big screen tv. I’ve done this before but this time, it was bad…

For some reason, I had a feeling my professor was going to pick me so I studied up on the topic. We knew it was going to be on Pulmonary Embolism (PE) so I focused on PE the night before when I was studying for my exam and reviewed before the lab. That way, if she picked me, I wouldn’t be completely clueless on the nursing interventions and what to do when your patient is having a difficult time.When she picked me, I was super nervous but I was like, ok I got this, lets do this. I have nothing to lose but some dignity (LOL)…

And… I don’t got it.

You see, the thing about these simulation labs is that you think you know what you’re going to do but the moment you go into the room, its like you forget everything nursing. Not only you have pressure of saving the SIM patient but also in the back of your mind, you have at least 8 pairs of eyes watching you. It’s a lot of pressure! So the moment my patient said, I CAN’T BREATHE and I’M IN PAIN, my mind completely blanked. And as we assessed the patient even further, his HR kept going up and his oxygen saturation kept going down. He was crashing and I blanked even more. The worst part was, the SIM patient said he was in pain and I administered morphine without checking the computer for orders or calling the provider. *facepalm* In the moment, I was thinking, “okay he’s in pain, pain is a priority, I should relieve his pain.” But in reality, WHY DID I DO THAT?! I KNOW BETTER. -.-  I guess on the bright side, I did hand hygiene and wore gloves lol … i guess. *facepalm* why…

I knew the end product was the patient had a Pulmonary Embolism because it said on the schedule but the point of this simulation was to get from point A to the end product. It’s like this large puzzle and you have to somehow put together their symptoms (the puzzle pieces) and then notify the doctor and try to relieve the problem. This is exactly what nurses do in real life! So when I failed, I felt really bad about it and guilty. Like why couldn’t I do it? and WHY DID I GIVE MORPHINE WITHOUT CHECKING FOR ORDERS?! GOODNESS. *more facepalm*

I think the hardest part was hearing all the “you should have, could have” done _____ from my peers. It is a learning experience but honestly, all i wanted to say to them was, “you don’t know what it was like until you’re in there”. I’ve definitely been in the viewing room and in my head I’m shouting like omg you should be doing this why are you doing that? like its a TV show but when you’re in there, it’s completely different. I was low key crying during the whole debrief because 1) I’m emotional 2) I was beating myself up for the dumb things I did in there. I know better and I know I could have done better but it is what it is and on the bright side, it’s a mannequin and he’s fine…I think…

What I would do differently is call the provider as soon as his vital signs started to deteriorate. The sooner I get the doctor’s orders, the sooner I can implement them and help the patient relieve the symptoms and prevent his condition from worsening.

I can literally write a book called “things you shouldn’t do as a nurse” based on my actions in the SIM lab that haha it was horrible. But again, I learned from my lesson and I hope my peers did too lol “this is what you shouldn’t do in a situation like this” 🙂 AND thank goodness they didn’t make me watch myself fail. That would have been even more traumatizing LOL I laugh about it now but man, during and after the simulation lab, I was a mess. sigh…

Anyways, that’s pretty much it for this blog post. If you guys have any stories from nursing school or even as a real nurse, comment them down below and we can laugh or cry about it together!

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Signing off from this blog post… I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful. Thanks for reading!

 

Peace out.✌

❤ , TIFF

Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.

 

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24 Things I Learned in 24 Years 🎉 | LETIFFANYSHOW✨

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Welcome back to my blog❤︎ 

I’m turning 24 today.

24?! You look 16.

Ikr? I got carded at the Wynn last weekend but oh my goodness, I love being carded. It makes me feel young! 🙂

Security: Hi ladies, I have to check your IDs please.

Christina & I: oh yes please do so. *handing her our IDs*

Security: Sorry, it’s just my job.

Christina & I: oh no, the day you guys stop asking for my ID will be a very sad day because that means we’re getting old.

…twenty…four…

Yikes. It’s such a weird age. lol and I thought 23 was an awkward number. But I feel like after turning 21, there’s nothing to look forward to anymore. At least at 25, I can rent a car. Sigh. anyways, today I thought I would share some things I’ve learned so far.

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  1. Mama knows best. She’s usually right.
  2. It’s okay to not know what you’re doing. Chances are, no one does.
  3. Let go of toxic people. Bye!
  4. Do things for you. Do what makes you happy, not other people.
  5. It’s not the end of the world. Seriously, stop overreacting.
  6. Capture the moment. You’ll want to look back at it one day.
  7. People come and go. Let them leave as they please.
  8. But the ones that stay are the most important ones. Especially the ones you don’t talk to everyday but when you’re together, its like you never left.
  9. Things change. But people don’t.
  10. It’s okay to fail. Second times the charm!
  11. Avocado toast is delicious. Sorry, I had to say it.
  12. Life keeps going. Stop living in the past.
  13. Trust yourself. It’s just you and me, pal.
  14. Go workout or something. So you can eat more later.
  15. But listen to your body. Stop pushing yourself so hard.
  16. Crying helps. C’mon we all do it at some point…
  17. Sh*t happens. It really does. But you know what? You’ll get over it.
  18. It’s okay to say no to things! Seriously.
  19. Don’t listen to social media. IG, Snapchat, and everything around you only gives the glamorous snapshot of their lives. Don’t be fooled.
  20. Read/listen to the news. Understanding what’s going around you and beyond makes you smarter.
  21. Communication is key. Not to patients, not to your friends…but to yourself. Know what you want.
  22. Everything will set into place. One day, you’ll wake up and say, “I made it.” Work hard and that day will come soon.
  23. Be yourself. And nobody else. (that was cheesy). 14 year old Tiffany would be proud.
  24. Breathe, child. 

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I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful. Thanks for reading!✨

 

Peace out.✌

 

❤ , TIFF

Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.

 

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IT’S ALL GOING TO BE OKAY..remediation at its finest // LETIFFANYSHOW ✨

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Welcome back to my blog!

Before I begin, I’d like to thank everyone who sent me positive vibes and encouraged me through this process. It made me really happy and your support definitely got me through this! Thank you so much! You guys are the best! ❤

So, remediation. Let’s talk about it.

For those who are new to my blog, hello! my name is Tiffany and I’m so glad you’re here! My program requires us to get a 90% or higher on everything which includes exams, assignments, projects, etc! If we do not get a 90% or higher on our exams, we go into remediation. It’s kind of a second chance for us to get that 90% of higher except during remediation, you don’t get team points. We have to get that 90%+ on our own and through evidence based review. Scary right? If you don’t pass remediation, then you go into block remediation. If you don’t pass that, then you get held back to the following cohort. It’s a lot of pressure! *hyperventilates*

So last night, I couldn’t sleep. I just felt like I didn’t study enough and I felt very anxious about it all. During the weekend, I tried to brush up on the terms and information I wasn’t confident on and wished for the best. It was also REALLY windy outside, which made it even harder to sleep. Sigh..

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Morning came and I was so tired. I had no energy to do anything but I had to do what I had to do! I dragged my sleepy butt to school extra early so I could review a little bit more before the exam (and chow down my Mcdonalds lol). Remediation took place in a really small room next to the lecture hall we take exams in. It was stuffy, warm, and I’m pretty sure I was inhaling everyone else’s CO2. HELP. There was 10 of us who remediated and that room definitely was not made for 10 nervous people. yikes..

The exam started and oh my goodness I was like, wtf is this? I definitely planned to use the whole 90 minutes even if I finished early. I didn’t want to do bad later and regret not using the given time. Question after question, I felt half good and half bad. Towards the end of the exam, I started having a panic attack. I’m not sure if it was my fear of “failing” again or the fact that the room had 10 people in it and I was suffocating. But I made it through the exam and I just let the timer run til the end.

Next came the evidence based review. There were a couple students who were borderline “failing” so we definitely had to EBR as many questions as possible.

Evidence based review is where we try to argue against questions that we feel could be worded better or have another answer and we find evidence to prove it. This could be from textbooks, the ATI books, or the module summaries the prof gave us.

I actually passed without the EBR and it was a relief! I missed 4 out of 60 which might be the best score I’ve ever gotten without team points. But it made me think about how I probably could have done this the first time if I knew how to study for assessment 1. We all agreed that the remediation exam was harder than the official exam. For a lot of the questions, I stared at it like ..um..am I supposed to know this? For example, diabetic neuropathy. I didn’t even read that section but luckily, I was able to use critical thinking and think my way through it. GAH that assessment is DONEZO.

For some reason, I always get a headache after being at school for too long. I’m not sure if it’s the air or just the environment but damn, I always need to have my backpack ibuprofen with me. What? You have your backpack chapstick and I have my backpack ibuprofen! 🙂

hehe welp, I will resume to vlogging tomorrow once I’m well rested. We start cardio and it sounds difficult. I also have my video assessment on Thursday for medication administration, which if you’ve seen my vlogs, I’m pretty nervous but okay about it. Wish me luck! But for now, I’m off to bed. Signing off from this blog post, I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful! Thanks for reading! 

 

Peace out.✌

❤ , TIFF

Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.

 

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I never want to remediate again. Pls no. YIKES.


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FAILING MY FIRST NURSING EXAM- an update on life // LETIFFANYSHOW ✨

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Welcome back to my blog!

I almost typed vlog there because I’ve been vlogging more than I’ve been posting here. MY BAD!

I’m tired. I’m like beyond tired. I’m brutally exhausted and I’m not sure why. This week I decided not to vlog because I just felt tired. Not tired of vlogging but I just felt mentally exhausted from school that I didn’t feel like talking.

Today, I failed my first nursing school exam and it didn’t feel good.

If this is your first time here, hi my name is Tiffany and it’s nice to meet you! My program requires us to get a 90% or higher on everything. That includes exams, video assessments, projects, discussion posts…everything!

I’ve been doing well and passing things on my first try (even when it’s barely 90%) but today, I didn’t get a 90. I got a 85%. I missed by 2.. 😦 Yikes. Now in the real world, I would be thrilled to get a 85% on any exam but in nursing school land, that is unacceptable.

This exam was on adult health I. It was 60 questions, 90 minutes and a whole lot of “what the heck is happening?” A lot of these questions required critical thinking. It was half knowing the material and the other half was deciding what your priority action would be. For example, if a pt was in pain, what would you do first? That kind of stuff. Of course stressed out Tiffany was thinking of other things and forgot that we should always make sure the pt is comfortable first. 😐 But hey, at least now I know.

This block is/was extra difficult for me because we came straight from pharmacology which was straight up memorization. The pharmacology exam had some critical thinking but most of it was just facts. For this exam, it was a lot of ” what would you do as a nurse?” and when I was reading the question, I wasn’t picturing the situation. I mean in real life, if my patient was in pain, I would of course take care of their pain first and then everything else comes next. But during the exam, all I was thinking was, ok this patient has this disease..must deal with disease. sigh..

It just sucks because I knew the stuff. I just did stupid things or didn’t think about it clearly. And now I’m sitting in a pile of regrets like “I should have read it more clearer…” or “I should have looked at that page again” It’s a really bad feeling. But honestly I’m not sad that I have to remediate because it’s really just a learning experience. Learn from your mistakes and excel from there. There is nothing wrong with remediating. It’s just scary because that is your second to last chance to get it right. Your score is your score. There is no team points and barely any evidence based review (EBR) so, I’m going to have to get that 90% all on my own. WHYY MEE.

I keep telling myself and my fellow “remediation colleagues” that it’s okay and shit happens. Because its true. Shit happens. We knew the stuff, things went over our head. I’m trying to take this and make it into a learning experience so I can change up my study methods, learning methods, and study habits. It’s all a learning process.

I have the weekend to keep studying and Monday morning, here we go again. It’s going to be one of the scariest things of my life but best believe, we’ll be just fine. #seeyouatremediation But for now, back to studying and signing off from this blog post… I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful.

 

Peace out.✌

❤ , TIFF

Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.

 

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IS THIS STILL SOMETHING I WANT TO DO? // LETIFFANYSHOW✨

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Welcome back to my blog!

Long time no blog post! I sincerely apologize for that. After Clinicals ended, pharmacology began and it’s been kicking my butt. No joke. All the meds sound the same and I can’t pronounce half of them. Oh boy… Anyways, today I thought I’d write about my first clinical experience. I vlogged it but I wanted to write about some things I didn’t talk about in the vlog!

Clinical rotations are like reality checks. You’ve learned everything there is to know about fundamentals but once you step onto that hospital floor, it’s something else. That is exactly what it was like for me.

This past week, I completed my first round of clinical rotations! This rotation focused on the things we learned in Block 3: Fundamentals of Nursing. My rotation was two weeks long with 3 consecutive 12-hour shifts in each week. So my group’s shifts were Thursday, Friday, and Saturday. I’ve never had to work the weekend before so it was a different experience. My Thursday–Saturday turned into my usual Tuesday–Thursday where my Friday was the dreadful day. Weird right? It really messed up my days. But after getting used to it, I stopped noticing.

12 hours…720 minutes..43200 seconds… 12 hours doesn’t sound so bad until you’re working it. The first day of clinicals went by really slow. Every time I looked up at the clock, only a few minutes passed by. It was such a drag. But then the next day, time went by a little faster. And by the final third day, time went by fast BUT all the exhaustion from the past few days accumulated and hit me in one day. Saturdays were my most tiring day.

Overall, I had fun and I loved it. It got me excited to go back to learning and graduate so i can be a Real Nurse. Anyways, I’m going to let my vlogs do the rest of the talking! I hope you enjoy!

 

 

OH but one thing I didn’t talk about was what happened during my evaluation. During evaluation, we sat down individually with our clinical instructor and she went over our performance with us. At one point, my clinical instructor asked me, “is this still something you want to do?” and that put me in a really weird place. As you can tell, I wasn’t doing so well. But it made me ask myself, “is this what I want to do?” In my professor’s opinion, I am a shy person who needs to spread her wings. TRUE. But when she asked me that, I felt lost again. Remember a few posts back, I talked about how I got to nursing?

Let’s review, TLDR; I didn’t know what to do with my life until I fell in love with nursing.

Well basically, I was back in that place. I love studying about nursing. I got through these past three blocks because I had a passion for nursing. But when I got onto the hospital floor, it was like another world to me. Suddenly everything I learned turned into black and white and there I was on the first day of clinicals, standing in a patient’s room not knowing what to say or what to do. I froze. When I was shadowing a nurse, I froze. I didn’t know what to ask, I didn’t know what to say, WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? But as time went on, I got comfortable in the hospital where I was able to talk to patients and help them with whatever they needed. But when she asked me that, there was the only thing rushing through my head.

Is this still something I want to do?

Damn, who knew eight words could mess me up. Not gonna lie, I went to the bathroom afterwards and cried it out and then went back to work. I hope it wasn’t obvious. Then after my shift, I went home and I cried some more. I don’t know if I ever mentioned this but one of my biggest fears is losing interest in my career/wasting time. I felt very meh about the whole situation. But my friends pep talked me back into my senses and the next day, I walked back into that hospital one last time. Still with some self-doubt, I tried my best to give it my all on my last day of clinicals. I think it was one of the best clinical days yet! I had a great nurse who taught me so much and I feel like I opened up a bit.

I have to accept the fact that I will never be as outgoing as some people BUT it does not define what kind of nurse I will be. And it takes practice. I hope by the next clinicals, I’ll be able to “spread my wings” a bit but for now, signing off from this blog post… I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful✨

Oh by the way, the answer to that question: yes, this is still something I want to do. Honestly, my clinical instructor wasn’t always watching me because there’s 8 of us and one of her. Therefore, she wasn’t always around when I was doing stuff. So she missed many opportunities where I interacted with patients and helped them with what they needed. I really enjoyed being around the patients and being able to be there for them. Patient care requires a lot of patience, time, and responsibility. I may not be perfect but who was ever perfect on their first try? Anyways, nowww I’m signing off. Thanks for reading! Ok bye! ❤

 

Peace out.✌

 

 , TIFF

 

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HELLO 2018 // LETIFFANYSHOW✨

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I hope you all had a safe and eventful New Years Eve! Cheers to a great year and whatever 2018 brings us! 😍 In my last post, I shared some things that happened in 2017! Today, I’d like to share my new years resolutions with you guys! 👇 newyearsresolutions

  1. Get over the awkwardness and vlog my nursing school experience! When I started nursing school, I wanted to vlog my experience and share it with you all. But once the camera turned on, my mind went blank and after all, my life isn’t that interesting. So I vlogged twice. This year, I’d like to work on getting over that awkwardness and vlog so that you guys can cry with me, sigh with me, and experience nursing school with me!
  2. Should I eat healthier? This seems like a staple new years resolution for everybody. My goal is to incorporate more nutritious foods into my diet. As I get busier with school, I tend to lose track of the food I put into my body and then things get bad. I also stress eat a lot and eat a lot of junk food. 😅
  3. I guess I should work out more… I joined a gym when I moved to Nevada because I had no muscle strength whatsoever and as a nurse, it’s probably an important thing to have. As time went on, I stopped going as often because school happens. This year, I would like to keep a specific schedule of what days I go and what I do on those specific days. This one goes with my eating healthier goal because diet is also a big part of reaching my fitness goal. MACHO TIFFANY IS COMING YO WAY IN 2018!! Just kidding. SOS.
  4. Let’s practice self care. Practicing self care is going to be an important factor in my nursing school career this year. It’s only going to get harder so I need to make sure I’m taking care of myself before I can take care of others. One of the ways I want to practice self care is by making sure I am not overworking myself, I tend to be too hard on myself and stress myself out. Relax Tiffany. Breathe… Take a step back and do something I love like blogging! What suggestions do you have for practicing self care?
  5. Stress less. I tend to stress about things I can’t control and it puts unnecessary stress on me. I want to work on letting go of the unnecessary worries and the things I can’t control. I’ve been working on this in 2017 and so far there’s progress! It’s helping me a lot!

And that’s it for my new years resolutions! It’s doable, right? Seems realistic! Again, I hope you had the happiest of new years and best of luck to whatever it is you’re doing whether it be school, applications, or jobs! If you have any blog post suggestions or questions, please let me know in the comments below! Or if you just wanna say hi, that’s cool too!

Stay inspired and always keep learning ✨ 

I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful ❤

Peace out.✌

❤ , TIFF

Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.

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GOODBYE 2017 // LETIFFANYSHOW✨

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Holy crispy chicken nuggets, where did 2017 go? It’s almost 2018 and I can’t help to think that I’m getting old. Time is going by so fast and I can’t keep up!! Where did all this time go??? 👀 Today, I’m going to highlight some of the things that happened in 2017. Get to know me and let’s get personal!

First job!

In January, I started my first real job as a front desk receptionist at a doctor’s office. As a newly graduated college human, I got this opportunity from my mom who happened to know the doctor that owned the clinic. He was looking for a part time Mandarin speaking front desk assistant/receptionist. I’m not fluent at all in Mandarin but I saw improvement as months passed by. My job was to translate Mandarin and/or Taiwanese, answer phone calls, take appointments, take vitals, and/or centrifuge blood test tubes. I am so thankful for this opportunity but man, that job was a mess. I don’t think there was a day where I was excited to go to work. I worked part time but it felt so long and it didn’t help that my coworkers weren’t friendly to me. I don’t think I will ever understand why they treated me the way they did. I also dealt with a lot of patients who thought the world revolved around them. It got frustrating but it taught me how to be patient with people and how to get creative with solutions in dealing with different situations. It was challenging at the time, especially when I had to translate it all but I learned a lot about the healthcare system. One of my favorite moments was when I had the opportunity to speak Taiwanese to some of the patients and they would have a shocked expression on their face! Taiwanese isn’t a popular language amongst individuals my age, especially American born citizens. So that was always fun…teehee. 🙂

Despite the challenges, this job made me realize my passion for patient interaction. Even though it was exhausting, I found myself loving the patient interaction more than sitting around doing office work. This lead me to my career choice! This year, I discovered nursing and worked my way up to apply for it. At first, the application process was very confusing but I got through it. My struggles inspired me to blog about my nursing school experience so that I could help future nursing students.  I took Anatomy & Physiology I, and did way better than I expected. I also took the TEAS exam, which I studied really hard for and again, did way better than I expected. Applying for nursing school was a headache but in the end, I’d say it was worth it. 😉

Every end has a new beginning!

In May, I walked across that graduation stage. At first, I didn’t want to because I thought I would be walking across it alone. But at the same time, I worked so hard for my five seconds of fame so I decided to do it. Because I had been gone from college for a semester, I didn’t know who to ask to sit with at graduation. It may not seem like a big deal but I really wanted to graduate with people I knew. I awkwardly messaged one of my friends from my pre-health fraternity and she gladly said yes to sitting with me. Graduation day came and turns out I sat with a lot of my fraternity brothers and sisters and it was a memorable day. (spoiler alert: I didn’t trip!) My brother also drove from Nevada to LA to Merced to attend the ceremony, which made it 10x better. My best friends, who I was supposed to graduate with, drove down from the Bay Area and it was like we never left. I hadn’t seen some of them since May 2016 so it was like a mini reunion! I miss them all the time. I reflected on my college experience here!

Getting into nursing school!

In June, I found out I got into nursing school and it was the best day of 2017. I felt like I had the slimmest chance of getting in because my gpa was wack, my interview was merp, and the only thing that probably could save me was my TEAS exam score. For once, I felt like I had my life together and that everything was gonna be okay. Also, I could finally quit my job! You have no idea how much I wanted to quit that job but I needed a good reason to and nursing school was one of them!

I quit my job at the end of August and I was a bit sad. I struggle with change and even though I hated my job, quitting was difficult. I said goodbye to my boss and coworkers and walked out feeling empty. Two weeks before my family vacation, I fell into some kind of deep sadness. I don’t know why I became like this but I didn’t want to eat and I didn’t want to get out of bed. Sounds dramatic, right? I felt so lost and anxious and there are some emotions I just can’t put into words. I felt alone and felt like I lost my purpose. I spent the last 16 years in school and that was my purpose. Then my purpose after that was to go to work and do my work to my best ability. But during the time between the end of a chapter to a new one, I started to doubt myself. I started to feel extra lonely and insecure about my future. Social media also did not help at all. Seeing other people’s “happiness” made me feel worse about myself. Why can’t I be like them?

Calm before the storm..

At the beginning of September, I went on a two week long cruise with my parents. It was kind of like the “last hoorah” before nursing school. I didn’t have wifi/cellular data for those two weeks and that was probably one of the best things that could happen for me. Instead of getting caught up in what other people were doing, I focused on what was happening in front of me. It was like a social-media-cleanse and it was great. I saw some of the prettiest things Mother Nature could offer in Alaska. You could see it here if you’d like! When I came back from Alaska, I felt refreshed and much much better. I was ready to move on with my life and got excited about starting nursing school. I spent the next two weeks getting ready to move out again for nursing school and I got my braces off!

Bye bye braces!

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I finally got my braces off after 4 years. It took forever because of my difficult tooth. A lot of the new people I’ve met don’t know this but I grew up without one of my front teeth. It wasn’t until sophomore year of college where it wanted to finally come out. It was just late to the party! I got braces again to open up the gap and got surgery to expose the tooth 💸💸💸. My orthodontist attached a chain to the newly exposed tooth and slowly pulled it down. After many visits and adjustments, I now have “perfect” looking teeth! YAY! I’ve never felt insecure about my missing tooth until recent when I realized that the people I know now don’t know my story. So when they see my pictures from a year ago, they just see a girl with a missing tooth. Some people find it funny but this was a very expensive tooth and if it had grown out like it was supposed to, we wouldn’t have this problem. Thanks for nothing, Mr. Tooth!

Goodbye California, hello Nevada!

Ahh it was time to move out again. I moved at the end of September and this time, the change didn’t hit me as hard. I was moving in with my older brother so I at least had a familiar face. I also now have two lovable dogs that follow me around the house. Their smiles are great stress relievers! It was still difficult to say goodbye to my parents as they headed back to LA but having my brother around made it easier. My parents love that we live together because now they can come visit both kids at once. You’re welcome, parentals!

I love living with my brother because I have a sense of independence but when I need help, he is there for me. Super duper thankful! ❤ But he won’t let me leave after I graduate so I guess I’m not leaving any time soon… oh 🐳!

I started nursing school at the beginning of October and it was a weird transition to go from traditional schooling to online/hybrid schooling. But after some adjustments, I got used to it and here I am 3 blocks later. I’ve written about some of my experiences in past blog posts! These are some of my favorite ones (here, here and here)! Time goes by fast, doesn’t it? I met some pretty awesome people and made several memories already. These people make nursing school less sad. Some of my favorite pictures are up there!☝

In December, I officially became a Nevada resident. I surrendered my California license plates and received new Nevada ones. It was a hard goodbye to my license plates but as always, every ending has a new beginning. Merp I’m gonna have a hard time looking for my car for the next two months. I’m going to be a Nevada resident for a while but who knows what the future will hold for me? But for now, that’s the plan!

Goodbye 2017!

I can’t wait to see what 2018 brings. I have a feeling it’s gonna be a good one! Here’s to all this learning and hopefully I don’t die in school. *fingers crossed* Also, I start clinical rotations very soon and I have a feeling that this is what we’re going to look like:

 Accurate or nah? HA!

Look out for my “first day of clinical” post to read about my first 12 hour shift! It’s happening soon!!!

Thank you for stopping by and reflecting on 2017 with me! Stay inspired and always keep learning ✨  Don’t forget to like, comment, and follow my blog if you’d like to be notified whenever I post! I hope you have a beautiful day and don’t forget to shine bright, you’re beautiful ❤

 

 

Peace out.✌

❤ , TIFF

 

Real Nurse (R.N.) in the making.

 

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